So much to do, but I am so tired

So, apparently I haven't made a serious journal in quite a while. It's been just a little over 6 months?

While, unfortunately I am not back on DeviantArt for good, nor even the internet unfortunately, I am here for the moment and I figured now is as good a time as ever to type up a journal entry.

So, Ever since my last journal entry I have been at Job Corps, where I had been getting accustomed to Job Corps at first, then I started training in my trade, which was Office Administration, and now I have finished my trade, but unfortunately am not ready to come back to face the real world. The reason for this is becuase when I come back to face all the responsibilities that I will have to face ahead, I want to be able to have such a huge advantage over these responsibilities that there will be no way I can fail.

When I get out of Job Corps, I will be looking for my own place to live and hopefully will have my business started up to the point where it will be able to support me while continue growing as a business, so that I won't have to look for a job, but if I do still have to look for a job when I leave Job Corps, then I will, but I will also make sure that I will have enough time to put effort into building my business.

Currently, I am in the ACT program at the Job Corps which is basically a full time college program and I will be in it until I am done getting my AS or AA. Unfortunately becuase I am still in Job Corps, there is almost no internet for me to access, and the little amount of internet that I do get to use is only the things that Job Corps chooses not to block.


I have some bad news, unfortunately, which is something that has changed me so dramatically that my entire outlook on life is different now. This last September, my oldest sister unexpectedly passed away. This was a very tragic event for our family. It's not easy for any of us in our family to live the lives we lead. I can't speak for the others for sure, but so far mine has seemed to mostly be a life of tragedy, thankfully with a little comedy here and there, but never enough to distract me from my vulnerability to my emotions as a human being.

Our sister will be missed, and never forgotten as long as we live. There have been many emotions that I have felt since my sister passed away, including regret, sadness, and bitterness. I have even been reminded of how short and fragile life really is. I have seen a glimpse of eternity and have even been reminded that life is far too short, and instead of getting discouraged by these things, they only drive me to work harder and more than ever before. I once said that if you want your dreams to become reality, make them into goals that you will never give up on, becuase while dreams are fragile and may be killed goals can never be destroyed. I have a future planned and the events that have transpired have only made me stronger and more determined than ever before, so much so that I will not let anyone or anything stand in my way.

That being said, when it comes to Deviant Art and the internet, I will likely be back in full swing either this next summer or possibly a year to a year and a half from now, all depending on how much I work, and how much I get done in between now and then. For now, I am off to enjoy my winter break.

EDIT: If you would like to hear more about my time at Job Corps, I have started a vlog that can be viewed at www.youtube.com/xario1